My Tantric Healing Journey: How I Healed and Awakened

What is a Tantric Healing Journey?

This tantric healing journey began in the shadowlands of childhood pain and led me back to my body, my truth, and my purpose.

The Roots of My Tantric Healing Journey

A Childhood of Sensitivity and Silence

I grew up in an environment where love was scarce.

During my early school years, we moved away from my beloved Cape Town up to Pietersburg, now known as Polokwane, during the apartheid era. The two distinct energetic tones that linger in my memory from that time are small-mindedness and nastiness.

I was born sensitive, empathic and open to observing my environment. On the healthy end of the spectrum, this is what makes for a good healer, provided there are boundaries and honesty in one’s emotional landscape.

Think of it like a radio receiving electromagnetic waves, tuning into subtle fields and translating them into sound. But when that radio is damaged by trauma, conditioning, or ancestral residue, what emerges is garbled, painful, and difficult to make sense of.

Abandonment and Awakening

Living in that kind of environment was suffocating. I hadn’t yet learnt to separate myself from how I was feeling. My mind, noisy and agonising; it trapped me in what felt like a cesspit. I was sent to boarding school very young, far away from home.

It was then that abandonment planted its first seeds, warping the lens through which I saw the world and myself.

I became shut down. I stopped feeling. In my attempt to cope, I numbed. And in time, I too became cold. The abused became the abuser. I inflicted pain on others, just as I had experienced it myself. And life, in its ruthless mercy, showed me the truth with painful clarity.

The Death of Numbness

That shutdown strategy served me as a child, but as an adult, it cut me off from empathy, joy, and true intimacy.

I had no choice but to find a way out. I was wild. Feral. I carried so much pain that it was difficult for me to function in the world. There was no one to hold me, no one to understand. So I learnt to hold myself. And that was the beginning.

The abandonment I experienced became my initiation. It forced me to separate from the false identities I had inherited and to forge a new path, one rooted in truth.

The Seduction of Denial

We humans are wired to belong. It’s our deepest instinct. But often we settle for environments that are toxic simply because they’re familiar. The thought of stepping out of that system, of individuating, feels terrifying.

So we stay. We deny. We numb.

But when we shut down pain, we also shut down pleasure. That’s when inertia creeps in, like a quiet fog.

How the Tantric Path Heals the Heart

The Heart’s Relentless Work

It takes tremendous courage to heal the heart. But oh, how worth it, it is.

Through many philosophies and healing paths, I eventually found Tantra. It became my soul’s compass. And in my early years, I was blessed to manifest a teacher who saw my potential and guided me through the darkness.

The Sacred Wounds of Masculine and Feminine

Most of us were raised in cultures that shamed men’s vulnerability and taught women to dim their power.

Men were told: “Don’t feel.” Women were told: “Be good. Be quiet. Be chosen.”

The Tantric path unravels these lies. It asks us to turn toward discomfort, to feel, to move, and to release, because that is how we come alive again.

The Call to Begin Your Own Tantric Healing Journey

The Call to Awaken

You don’t need to come from trauma to feel this calling. Perhaps you're simply yearning for more. Or perhaps your soul is screaming for release.

Either way, you need a guide, someone who has walked the fire and returned with the medicine. Someone who understands what it means to take the red pill... and just how deep the rabbit hole goes.

Your Body Holds the Key to Healing

The Body as Oracle and Storehouse

Your body holds it all, every unmet emotion, every ancestral whisper, every unfinished story.

Tantra brings you back into intimacy with yourself. It strengthens your capacity to receive, especially the uncomfortable, and that’s when the real healing begins.

This tantric healing journey involves awakening the kundalini energy at the base of your spine, often through the vehicle of sexual energy. Once this energy is activated and cultivated, it can lead to profound spiritual liberation.

What You’ll Experience in a Tantric Healing Journey

Two Paths to Awakening

There are two approaches to kundalini awakening:

The Active Path

Through practices like:

Visualization

Concentration

Pranayama (breathwork),

Kriya and Kundalini yoga

Meditation

These stir and direct the energy consciously.

The Passive Path

This is the path of surrender.

Of feeling what has long been buried.

Of letting go.

It includes the transmission known as 'Shaktipat', when one’s Kundalini is activated by another who has already walked the path.

In my work, I weave both approaches, honoring structure and surrender equally.

Your Invitation to Begin

The tantric healing journey begins the moment we choose to feel again, fully, fiercely, and without apology.

The tantric healing journey begins the moment we choose to feel again—fully, fiercely, and without apology.

The Initiation I Offer

I offer this path as your guide: a five-session tantric healing journey where we meet once to twice a week for three hours. You will receive practices and meditations that you can incorporate into your daily routine between our sessions.

The experience is an initiation. A reclamation. An investment beyond money.

Therefore, I only collaborate with individuals who deeply resonate with this concept and are committed to pursuing it.